Operation baby!!

I wrote the poem in a gay bar last night - as it has internet! - Got fairly drunk so read this back and corrected the spellings and slightly changed it around. -

Looking back

I am now trying to get my life back on track
I remember the day well
I had no idea it would turn out to be the day from hell
I got a call to say my wife was in a hospital bed
I had no idea that 12 hours later she would be dead
The week that followed I was all in total despair
Why was my life turning into this nightmare
I cried my eyes out, until I could cry no more
And then I realized, then I saw
That how much that I did adore
And now through out my life
I must get used to not having my wife
Though not together she was a great friend
And what a loss, what an un-timely end
I will never forget her, even though the years pass by
And to be honest - I wouldn't even try
A place in my heart I will hold for ever for Anne
I was very lucky to be her man.

Then a few weeks later I met Laura

God did I adore her

She was the BEST girl I have ever met; between us there was a real spark

She led me into light from the dark

I will always remember that text exchange, it was great

My best ever in fact - And the same goes for our first and only date

That weekend I spent with her was one of my best ever

Though shortly after that out of her life me she was to sever

Over her I got totally barmy

But the downfall was she did have a boy friend in the army!

She was there at the exact right time - she gave me my confidence back - which to me was such a gift

From the depths of despair - me she managed to lift

The next few years later - Well I was doing reasonably ok

A few more girls certainly came my way

And then well along came the 17th of May

As Abi I met on that day!

A few months later from Luton with her I moved away

Then like Anne she just suddenly "died"

When I had dreams of her being my second bride

But she did not die well not in the literal sense anyway

She just fucked off on Boxing Day

I loved her and that hurt - She falsely accused me of going to jail

The wind just like that was knocked out my sail

And as much as I mask it - and don't write about it now

On the way "Nellie the elephant" took her bow

How she lied to me - and 400 pounds off me she stole

As she quit the leading lady role!

For in a single text message she destroyed my confidence and all my trust

Like a multi national company just going bust

Just there was no Laura then

And it left me the most heartbroken of men

A tall proud building just turning to rubble

And then with work a few months later I got into trouble

To be told on the Friday - please relinquish your pass

That weekend - well of drink I had certainly had a glass

My future looked very bleak

As I ended the week

My life I wanted to stop

My door got kicked down by a cop

A status message - Abi left me on MSN

Again my life I wanted to end

I sent a text message to Lisa my best friend

And the police to me she was to send

So that was twice in a few weeks - I had never been before in such a mess

No more no less

I was far from my best

Had to take anti depressants for the first time - Yuk

Talk about a bad turn of luck

For what Abi did - I have still not recovered from the shock

And well last June my head was very much on the block

Had to see a shrink - and listen to what he said

Back to Anne all this led

With Abi not saying good bye

I still remember Anne her head slightly tilted to one side

2 minutes after she died

And with him - I very much agree

Abi just totally destroyed me

Then I met Rachel - and well then

My broken heart I still could not mend

She is a fat bird - Revenge hey

I will steal off her - like a fat bird stole of me Boxing Day

Yet it did not turn out that way

Part of my plan - to get her to fall in love with me came true

But to rob her in the end - I just could not do!

And she introduced me to her best mate

Who like me wanted a baby and frankly could not wait

I met her on September the 2nd - If I had still not been suspended, I would have been at work that day

And well let’s just say

I had within ten minutes of meeting her my wicked way

A baby - that was the carrot - though I did not think about the stick

To get what I most wanted - I was all to keen to put in my dick!

(I am waiting for Sarah to finish work so got time on my hands)

And a baby -well that for years has been the centre of my plans

So we got together

Even though I should have known better

Cuz my plans never go quite to the letter

And in due course

She told me - well to have a baby I had backed a winning horse

I tried to break away - but yet I kept on going back

The only way to get a baby was to just keep getting her in the sack

Remember that is my greatest dream

I was willing to follow along with her scheme

3 days after we first met - she told me in her front room

And to me that really was a journey to the moon

That in exactly a year from now

And her wish is coming true some how

To take life on earth

In a few weeks now she is going to give birth

Well it was our dreams

And both of our schemes

Into them I gladly fell

I wanted to be in heaven - not stuck in hell

Then all of a sudden in January our baby was dead

Just for a few weeks later she said

No its not - that baby is still very much alive

I accused her of telling me a lie

Why bother - but nice try

Yet what she was saying was true

Instead of July when we first thought - it was September that baby was due

And all again a daddy I could be - and that is a job I so want to do

For that really is for me going somewhere new

Then came March 27

When I came down from heaven

For I got arrested for something I just did not do

And ***** if you ever read this - Well it’s been a while since I have seen you

The closer to September it is to come

How ironic - I now just want to run

You really have got me scared

And my true feelings tonight have been bared

I don’t know - my whole life could depend on a DNA

And in this poem I have had so much to say

So I think will leave it here - that’s is the end

Thank you my diary for being my friend!